Dear God,

Where are you?
Do you even exist?
I'm beginning to doubt your presence
I'm scared God
Scared for the future.
I dont know what to believe anymore
Are you real or not?
Are you just another fairytale or do you exist?
I've asked for signs but have received none, I have been patient.
I'd like to say this is a test of faith but I dont know what to think anymore.
Why do so many bad things happen? If you love us why do you make us suffer.

God, I'm upset with you. I feel abandoned.
All my life i've been putting all my faith, hope, and trust into a fairytale. Your words used to keep me alive and well, but now my world has come crashing down around me.

I am terrified. I am clinging to life through a simple musician.

I am lost.

If I go with him I will find peace but no God.

If i go with you I'll find God but no peace.

Please, if you exist show me a sign...soon. I cant wait forever.m I dont know who or what to believe in anymore.

I dont know if i'm talking to myself or if you're here listening.

Please help your lost sheep or your sheep will have to find a new home away from you.


"God is dead and we get to sleep tonight
Walk with me; into the truth, and out of your lies"

When I first heard these words I was shocked and disturbed.

But now I find comfort in them.

I feel like IAMX, Chris is right.

I want to follow him into what he calls the truth

but there is still part of me clinging to you.

There is still hope deep down that you really are here.

But i just dont know anymore

I cant cling to this small fragment of hope forever

its tearing me apart

I'm just about ready to "flush the toilet on this God shit"

If you're real I know you are disappointed in me, I'm disappointed in myself too.

I grew up studying your wonders. I used to go to church every Sunday

now I only go when im' forced to

When i'm there I just daydream until communion when I eagerly drink the wine.

I own a bible but I never read it, when I do I just look for grammar errors and check for inconsistencies

I am certainly hell worthy in your standards at this moment.

So if you care or something you might want to help me out here.

I cant force myself to believe any longer

I've been shown a way out

I way I can be happy again.

Your time is limited, I will not wait for you.

I refuse to waste my days waiting around for a sign that will never come.

So listen here "GOD" come do something miraculous or I'm out of here.

Sincerely,

Jessica

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